photos: Olivia Moon

 

Death of the Moth
(in process)

Death of the Moth explores the complicated yet romanticized notions of hysteria, depression, femininity; and the traumatic effects on one’s mental and emotional psyche living in a toxic patriarchal society. This highly scored improvisational solo uses tonal voice exploration, relentless physical phrasing, text and quiet contemplation to create a space for myself, as the performer, to falter and fall apart, to be chaotic and deranged, to decay, and be filled with terror, pain and rage. I am interested in exposing a deep visceral vulnerability within myself and my female body so that the audience can witness the physical manifestations of past trauma, ghosts, and memories. I am interested in the ugliness, grotesque, harrowing qualities that bleed out of my body within this personal manifesto. This work draws inspiration from my long-standing obsession with the writings of suicidal 19th and 20th century feminist writers such as Virginia Wolfe and Sylvia Plath and from my own struggles with depression, experiences of gas-lighting, need for rebelliousness, mess, and nothingness; while simultaneously wrestling with personal and societal expectations of what it means to be woman.

Created + performed by: Nattie Trogdon



February 2019 WIP v.1 Old First Reformed Church, NY
March 2019 WIP v.2 Boston University, MA
June 2019 WIP v.3 Stuffed Judson Church, NY
Aug 2019 WIP v.4 Recess Chez Bushwick, NY